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Sunday, September 30, 2012

Under a Moonlit Sky - Conversations Between Krishna and Meera






Krishna: This painting. It  has so much to say. Who is she, Meera?

Meera: She? She is.. sensuous. She is poetic. She is lyrical. She is a dreamer. In an existential trance, she breathes romance. Paris. That is Paris pour elle. Amorous and vintage. Sitting there on satin sheets on an antique brass cot with a red rose in her hand, she feels intoxicated. But, it is neither the Cabernet red wine nor the breathtaking view of the city.  She is overwhelmed. By him. That man. The one. The one who couldn’t stand to accept the daily demonstrative love she felt in herself, and give back as good as she gave. So she sits there. Being sensuous. Being romantic. Seeking passion. Seeking some sort of counterintuitive romance in love.

Krishna: What happens when he comprehends? Some day. The depth of what he left behind. What if he longs for it? What if his hours are filled with yearnings? A yearning for what he once had only indifference and passiveness?  A yearning for homecoming.. into those very arms, in that very place, for that very hour?  What if his entire subsequent life has been a road leading down to that one end? To the beginning. What if he realises what he had always sought for was what he once had? Will his quest be futile? Will his passage be denied?
What will she say? Will she say nothing? Will she say it at all? Will she wait till the  moment passes, the light fades and the possibilities vanish?  

Meera: She would take a deep breath and tell him, “Look just a little too hard at me. Stand just a little too close to me. Let’s go back and replay all our scenes. Did we ever really share? Did we just soliloquize? Was I ever really there? If I leave this sheltered space, will anything be there? A place in time still belongs to us. So, I will wait in my cage for you. You'll see a side of love you've never known.”

Krishna: Some things never change, do they Meera?. Even with the passing of years.  Some things sadly do. He would have meant much to her once. Even after all these years he still seems to mean something to her. Did he take her world by storm? Was he the fulcrum around which her life revolved?  What did he represent to her? What did he give her?  What did he take with him when he left?

Meera: He had given her exactly what she had been meandering about looking for, that he was, at once, both the point and the purpose of her life, that he was, gloriously, it seemed to her, the answer! She wanted to believe in him, in his ability to transform her life for her, corral all those wild yearnings in her into something less wasteful, give her not just an appetite for the passion, but an exciting idea of it. She might be growing increasingly frustrated at his evasiveness about the romance she had in mind, hardening into a refusal to talk about it at all, but she still could not bring herself to walk away, to step bravely out into a life without him for the simple reason that such a life seemed too bleak and pointless even to contemplate. And now, when he finally comes along, is it sane to leave him with a half- hearted goodbye?

Krishna: I wonder.. Is it sane? Or are some doors closed forever? Do we outgrow certain people? Do we change, ever so gradually, until the love we had is just a mere sweet memory that has no place in the harsh light of reality?

Meera: *long pause* She tends to keep herself away from his goodbyes as she experiences an old familiar stirring, a growing restlessness that she dreads but recognizes only too well.

Krishna: Some things are best expressed via allegory, allusions or imagery. You speak in the language of images and words Meera. If people knew how to listen, they would understand what you have to say. That image was no random choice. It means something to you. It represents something to you. Maybe it is you. Maybe this tale is more than what it seems to be.

Meera: *deep silence*

-- By Shyam & Malvika.

    She blogs here.

5 comments:

Troll-eshwari said...

Vague banter + talking about beauty and grace + romanticizing everything you want to hark
about(and very badly at that) doesnt make everyone a modern day william blake, does it? But
what the hell, i'll stop being so cynical. This feeling of a false sense of extreme prejudice
and interllectualism we could so easily cover ourselves with is one one of the great things the
internet has given us. A dozen blogposts about the greatest book, the greatest music, the
greatest movie, the self, the flower, the sky and the romance surely makes you think that you are the next bukowski or something, eh? But it aint the case old boy, it aint. Stop being so preposterous and please, shun whatever gives you the impression that you are a great writer as a mere illusion of grandeur.
If this comes accross as holier-than-thou, sorry man, i dont intend to be rude(actually i do), but how can i help when your blog sucks so much. It is pseudo intellectual, over the top, snazzy language and what not? But you know what surprises me? Its the tone of your writing. Its as if you are so utterly sure of your linguistic prowess or "calibre"(now! stop sniffing around. you wont find me) if you will and compassionately throwing down your holy opinions upon us lesser ones. I mean, could condescension reach any greater height than this -->"avid thinker, prolific questioner"? Please man, you are good at many things. But you sure as hell are not a great(i am saying 'great' because i feel i have gone too far already) writer. Take leave from this blog for a while, do something else worthwile and get better at it.

Having said all that, i accept that i have NOT been civil enough here(to put it in the best sense). If this serves as a consolation, there has never been a single case of a troll commenting in this space. So, i am something of a first here, no? But seriously, your posts have always made me very very kovam and kaduppu and gaandu. So I came. I vented. Now i go. bye.

Oh wait, some little advice. Moderate your comments man. You dont want the world to see these kind of comments before you do.

Shyam Kumar said...

This is interesting.All that I stake a claim to is a place to put up what I write. Nothing more, nothing less.You are entitled to your opinions and I'm rather interested in them. Your tone is very familiar so you are someone I know pretty well. So why dont you tell me who you are? Why not tell me in person?Or send me a mail perhaps? Id like to know what makes you think the things you do .
Oh and why moderate? Let the world have a look at this.

Troll-eshwari said...

Do you think i would have posted this comment if i had the nerve to say something as nasty as this right onto your face? No. I want my identity behind a convincing(i think) veil of trolling only implies that i want my identity concealed. Well, for all you know i could be one of those vague wannabe stalkers that want you seen flagellated by words for really no reason at all. But heck, i thought you would call me names or atleast dismiss me rudely and hence gratify my visceral impulses. But your reply is making me feel guilty or something. Playing Gandhi here, are we?

Shyam Kumar said...

Someone is high :) Alcohol or Shrooms I wonder

Troll-eshwari said...

while i am high
over
alcohol or shroom or pot

i troll
over
a friends blog called straight from the heart